The Reality Blog

A very dear reader and friend Kathy at 
http://bipolarandbreastless.wordpress.com
 presented me as her one and only nominee for ‘The Reality blog.”

Thank you so much Kathy!  It really shows me that what I write really has meaning.

Here are the rules for accepting this award.
1. Visit and thank the blogger who nominated you.
2. Acknowledge that blogger on your blog and link back to them.
3. Answer the five questions presented.
4. Nominate up to 20 Blogs for the award and notify them on their blog.
5. Copy and paste the award on your blog somewhere.

The questions that I have been asked to answer are:
1. If you could change one thing what would you change?
2. If you could repeat an age, what would it be?
3. What one thing really scares you?
4. What is one dream you have not completed and do you think you’ll be able to complete it?
5. If you could be someone else for a day, who would it be?

When I contemplate the first question I am answered with “Would I change my experiences?”  The answer to that is no.  I am surprised at this answer.  I would not be who I am without those experiences.  My life is what it is now because of what I went through.  To give that up would change where I have landed.  I would not have my husband or my little girls and I wouldn’t change that.  What I might change is the amount of time that it has taken me to pursue my abuse recovery.  I am in a place right now where I have uncovered some deeply buried memories that I don’t really know how to handle.  I am almost stuck on where I’m supposed to go from here.  I am determined though that I am going to pick myself up, dust myself off, and move forward.

If I could repeat an age, what would it be?  I don’t know of any age that I would repeat.  There isn’t a particular age that was easier over others.

What really scares me?  This is a two part answer.  Jack A. (I believe) will always terrify me but equally terrifying would be turning out like him or Kim.  That is what scares me the most.

What is one dream that you have not completed and do you think that you will be able to complete it?  I want to finish one of the books that I have started to write and I can only hope that it will be published.  I just have to find the right editor and publisher.

The final question is if you could be someone else for one day, who would it be?  Again, this is a two part answer.  I would split the day between each of my little girls.  My goal in doing this would to be to help me be a better mother to them.  Also, to make sure that I’m not like Kim.  That they have all of the love that they need.

 

7 Things About You Award

Thank you to forcingmyeselfhappy (whom you can find at
http://forcingmyselfhappy.com
) for nominating me for the 7 Things About You Award.  I’m rather excited.  I’ve only been blogging regularly for roughly two weeks and have found it to be a wonderful form of therapy and have met a lot of wonderful people.

Ok, so the rules are:

1.  Thank the blogger who nominated you.

Thanks again to ForcingMyselfHappy!

2.  Share seven things about you.

Oh pooh… This is easy when I don’t have to do it and just write… Will try my best anyway.  

1.) I would rather text someone than talk on the phone.  I think talking is best done in person.  There’s nothing I can’t say in a text.  That’s not to say I won’t answer my phone if someone calls me.  

2.) I see a neurologist regularly for migraines.  I’ve had migraines that last for days on end… 

3.) I am the only kid out of my family of three generations to graduate from college.  I am less than a year away from my bachelor’s and then will be pursuing my master’s.

4.) My biggest fear is being a bad mother and turning into my mother or step father.  I know that I would never let myself and however irrational it is, I am still terrified of it.  

5.) Aside from having little to no childhood (or a really bad one), I’m happy with where my life has gone.  I’m happily married and have two, very polite, wonderful little girls.  Despite this, on the inside I feel as if there are jagged pieces of my soul that need to be repaired.  Hence my blog.

6.) Being a mom, I would love to find the person that created Blues Clues and give em what for… I HATE BLUES CLUES!

7.) I love taking pictures of everything but hate pictures being taken of myself.  I know that is probably the case with most people… but with some of the things that have happened to me… It’s hard for me to be in pictures.  I had an uncle that liked taking pictures of me and it wasn’t with good intentions.  Thankfully my aunt watched out for me.

3.  Nominate other bloggers you think deserve the award and post on their blog to let them know they’ve been nominated.

I nominate Cathy from cathysvoicenow whom you can find at 
http://cathysvoicenow.wordpress.com
!